Friday, September 26, 2014

Unanswered Prayers

"Mothers are endowed with a love that is unlike 

any other love on the face of the earth." 

-Marjorie Hinckley

About a year ago I found out I was pregnant. I was less than thrilled. I hadn't planned it. I didn't grow up wishing to be a mom. Not that I thought being a mom was a bad thing, I just didn't have that overwhelming desire burning inside me to become one (that everyone around me seemed to have). Being a mom, meant not being a kid anymore. I came to terms with growing up a little bit. I got excited about it. I made a place for him in my life. I held him close, kissed him, and loved him. 

Today, this little boy we named Korbin will turn 7 months old. Wow, time flies. The past several months have made me dig deeper as a person than I ever have before in my life. Being a mom is hard! My life has never been so crazy upside down, in a good way. Every time I do something I’m not just thinking about me and how this will affect me, I’m thinking about an amazing little boy and my family. My schedule is a joke. I run around and multi-task so I can have time to sit with undivided attention to cuddle and love on my little squeeze. I've become so much more efficient because I have to be. "There is no limit to what a mother can accomplish." - Julie Beck. Full time work and full time school and being a mom around the clock doesn't leave much time to get in trouble. 
I started thinking today how much my life really has changed. I had zero idea about my capacity to love. Does that mean I suddenly have the patience necessary to keep my sanity at all times? Not a chance. Sometimes, I have to walk away from hard moments, take some deep breaths, and refocus on what's most important. Sometime I have to let the ball drop in one area (e.g. my reading for last night's class ended up being more of a quick skim, than thoughtful study.). I hate it when I have a bad mom day. But I'd be lying, if I said I always make the best decision for him. One thing I can say: I try.

I didn't think that I could love being a mom--that sounded like a Saturday morning chore that required too much effort. It sounded like a lot of work, sacrifice, listening to crying, cleaning, long nights, and long days. I was unfortunately right. I was also far from a full list. Along side this small list of inconveniences is a huge deck of smiles, cuddles, laughs, loves, oh and can I just say I don't think I will ever get sick of hearing him say "moma." I love it. EVERY. time.

At the end of the hard days, I give a little fist pump in the air. Congratulations to me for making it through. I give a little boy a kiss or maybe two, or three, ok I give him a lot of kisses--too many to count. I tell him I love him. A little piece of my heart aches that I will have to wait until morning to play with him again.

My nightly prayers have changed. I no longer ask God for anything. I just tell him I trust him. I also remind him that sometimes he trusts me too much (some of my trials out there are seriously bigger than me). I used to pray that if I did my as much as I could, that he would ensure all of my hopes and dreams would come to life. I thought I was dreaming big, but I wasn't. I had no idea that my dreams were tiny. It's like I was asking for a glass of milk, when He was ready to give me ice cream - chocolate ice cream, with caramel sauce, marshmallow, and heath pieces. I give thanks that I didn't get what I was asking for. I'm so glad God didn't give me what I thought I deserved. Instead, he gave me my son, my favorite tiny human, and for that I am thankful.

A few things about Korb
Favorite food: Sweet potatoes, especially, when he feeds himself
Favorite time of day: morning
Favorite book: Snuggle puppy
Favorite Sport: Soccer
Favorite sport to watch: golf (ugh)
Favorite football team: BYU Cougars
Favorite toy: plastic bags, jk, but really though. Also loves his teddy bear.
Loves: rolling over, scooting, baths, telling stories (jabbering), grabbing anything he can reach, diving off things, and being the center of attention.
He is independent. He is happy. He is playful. He is sweet - gives the best hugs. 

Monday, February 17, 2014

Happy Life Tip

I have a top secret tip to share with you. This is a totally new, break through discovery you're going to be amazed. You ready? You don't believe me? Good. I'm lying. This advice is nothing new, in fact I'd be surprised if you haven't heard it previously. I'm just going to add my "review" for this technique.

The best way to make a bad day better or a good day great is to look outside of your own life and find someone else you can help. It's called service. It's all about focusing on other people. Why does that make you happy? It's not because you compare yourself to them (don't do that), it's not because you'll make money from helping someone, it's not because that person or people you help will profusely thank you making you feel accomplished. Nope, none of these.

The reason, I believe, is simple. Most often our bad days come when we are too focused on what's not right in our lives. When we choose to serve other people we start to focus on them. To serve them in a way that makes them happy we have to really think about their needs and wants. This means we can't be thinking about ourselves. And that is what I've found to be the key. When I can't think about me, I can't think about what's bothering me. I just like to take me out of it all together.

Service is all about someone else. Let me be honest for a minute. It also feels good to know you made someone else's day a little bit better. So it's hard to have a completely self-less service, but still it's a great hobby for elevating your day.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

pumpkin waffles = heart smiles

I feel like this post needs a drum roll. (Imagine drum roll) I am about to share with you a recipe I developed this fall that has quickly become a staple at our house!  I love pumpkin and previously I had several different recipes,  but I didn't love any of them.  I started experimenting and this is where I've landed (at least for now).  I hope if you try them you will love them like we do.  From hot with syrup to cold and plain.  I just can't get enough. Even my picky picky picky husband likes them. (I know I did something right when he gets excited to eat!)

Extraordinary Pumpkin Waffles

Mix together in a medium bowl
1 C Wheat Flour
1 C White Flour
2-4 TBSP Brown Sugar  (I use 2 tbsp, unless I'm feeding my brothers who don't eat anything that doesn't taste like dessert, so if you prefer sweet you'll want 4 tbsp.)
2 tsp Baking Powder
1 tsp Baking Soda
3/4 tsp Cinnamon
3/4 tsp Nutmeg
a pinch or two of salt

Mix together in a small bowl
1 C Pumpkin
1 C Buttermilk
1/2 C Milk (you might need to add more at the end, so don't put the milk away just yet)
1 Egg yolk (save the white)
3 TBSP almost melted Butter

Add this mixture to the dry ingredients and mix.

In a mixing bowl
Whip 3 egg whites until peaks are formed. Once your whites and nice and fluffy fold them in your batter. (My mouth is watering right now, just thinking about this stage ... because next up is cooking and eating.)
I've made them in belgian and regular waffle irons and both work out just fine. You MUST butter the iron before putting the batter on. Especially, if you use more sugar.

These are most delicious when they are hot, I usually eat one plain the second it's done, because I can't wait. However, they are also a great snack to grab from the fridge on your way out the door (if you have any left over). I've found that reheating them in a toaster also works great.

Now go make some waffles. Serve with fresh fruit, syrup, or whipped cream.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Cherry Shrimp

Well November came and passed and while I loved it and thoughts of my blessings each day I didn't have much time to write about them. It was a crazy month, however, I just have to take a few minutes to write about how thankful I am for my favorite husby. I know he's my only one, but he's still my favorite.

When I decided to go back to school I knew it would be a little crazy, but I had no idea just how intense it was going to be. Between work and school I feel like I always have something to be working on, then when midterms or finals hit, it gets crazy. to state it mildly. haha. This week was no exception, there wasn't a night I was home before 10:30 until Friday, which I spent all night studying. Saturday morning I had to get up early and head to work for what turned out to be a full day instead of half, but when I got home he had the house clean and had slowly started putting up the Christmas decorations (In all the wrong places of course, but I think he was doing it on purpose). I wish I could say I then had time to hang out, but instead I went right back to studying with no complaints from him, in fact he even thought to plug in head phones to the TV so it would be still be quiet for me to study while he watched basketball. Not to mention he had had to shift his schedule 3 different times back and forth to accommodate mine. There are just a million little things he's done all week (and always really) to help me while I was just trying to survive one day at a time. I could not have gotten through this week and be done with all my finals right now, had he not been the amazing supporter that he is! This week was just one example of how he is exactly the right person for me to have by my side always. I could go on and on about all of his amazingness, there is no end to his talents.

So thankful for the incredible example he is to me of caring and selfless service! Love my Brian.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

My cozy comfy sleep spot

For the first time since we got married we bought a bed, and a king-size bed at that! I was/am still so excited! We have pushed two queen beds next to each other since we got married. A bit ridiculous? Maybe. It's been seriously so fun to have a bed we call our own that is exactly what we wanted and soooo comfy. It has definitely come with it's challenges, like how the heck do I get my husby to stay on his side?! lol.  Still though I just love it.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Freedom to Choose!

November 2nd

Today I'm thankful I get to make choices. I don't always make the best choices, but I get to learn from those mistakes and keep going. I get to choose what I want to do, who I want to be with, where I want to go, when to change directions, how to live. At least for the most part. Every once in a while something unexpected comes up and I get to roll with it, but I'm thankful I live in a country that values freedom and at a time where that freedom means making anything happen!

Friday, November 1, 2013

It is here, FINALLY!

A quick Life update:
Wow. The last few months have been a blur! Working full time and going to grad school full time and finding time to spend with my husby/family/friends is intense. With classes and homework at night there isn't much free time these days. It's hard. It's amazing. Last week I took my first round of finals! This week I started new classes ... there's no messing around in BYU's EMBA program, that's for dang sure. I just love it though. My professors have all been incredible so far and I feel like I'm learning so much. Better yet, it's learning I'm retaining and USING! Awh. love it. I could go on about how I think I'm totally crazy for giving myself this schedule, but every night I'm so thankful for all of the opportunities I have and I wouldn't trade out a single thing.


I love Thanks Giving Month aka November. It's just a great time to remember all of the blessings that grace my life everyday. I have more than I ever could've dreamed of and still my Father in Heaven continues to give! I love spending time focusing on those things--little and big--that make my life sweet.

November 1st
I'm thankful for my senses. I love being able to see, hear, touch, smell, taste, and feel(from the heart). All of these elements combined to make experiencing life pretty phenomenal.